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Grow into your molding [24 Apr 2009|10:10pm] It is not hard to live through a day, if you can live through a moment. What creates despair is the imagination, which pretends there is a future, and insists on predicting millions of moments, thousands of days, and so drains you that you cannot live the moments at hand.

1 Grow into your molding Crumbling. [30 Mar 2009|03:46pm] I hide behind this wall made of sturdy bricks and past heart broken. This wall is strong and this wall is tall. It has been impenetrable to all that have challenged its strength, until he came knocking. He knocked gently at first but came back every day stronger and stronger with new words and tools to make the wall crumble. I surrendered to those blue eyes and soft lips. We built a tower for two together made of memories and sweet words. But slowly he forgot and wandered from the tower, disappearing into the dark. Now I wait alone at the top of this shaky tower for the boy who weakened me to return.

1 Grow into your molding Don't give up. [02 Mar 2009|04:09am] You can't hear a plane in the sky here, like you can where I'm from. You don't hear the crickets or the gentle passing of a lone rider in a car on the road late at night. Here your ears are filled with taxi cab horns and drunken hollers. I'm so far away from those arms that hang around me so limply. When all I want to do is bang on those ribs of yours and find the love that used to be buried deep in your chest. So I spend my nights waiting for calls that never come. I get on planes and fly over places i'll never know just to look for the flicker in your eye that has now gone out. When the flame started from that spark across the table littered with ash and beer cans I choked for the fear of the love I thought would be mine. But the light and warmth has been snuffed out from too many nights spent alone and forgotten before it even had the chance to blaze.

3 Grow into your molding [19 Apr 2008|09:47pm] i'm being pulled in too many different directions. i don't know what to do.

1 Grow into your molding [13 Mar 2008|11:51am] I live out here on the rocks. Beaten down, and torn day after day by the violent waves. They keep saying it's only a few paces to the safety of the shore. But i've fallen for the ocean mist and rhythmic sound of the waves coming and retreating. Those roaring waves will kill me one day. But I can't seem to pull away.

Grow into your molding [27 Feb 2008|07:29pm] I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time To spend an evening with me And if we go someplace to dance, I know that theres a chance You wont be leaving with me And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place And have a drink or two And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid Like: I love you I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies You heard the night before And though its just a line to you, for me its true It never seemed so right before I practice every day to find some clever lines to say To make the meaning come through But then I think Ill wait until the evening gets late And Im alone with you The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red And oh the nights so blue And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid Like: I love you

1 Grow into your molding [18 Feb 2008|10:38pm] You think that I don't know that my lover's got a sickness that I can't fuck him out of. He looks so alone. Oh I need some friends right now, I need a break. I will ruin everything, I will take him on and then she said to me that love is just a dream and I can hold onto it for as long, for as long as I want and I decide today if I want him or if I'm gonna leave him but I cannot, no I cannot just blame it all away.

1 Grow into your molding [22 Jan 2008|05:08pm] I don't get it.

1 Grow into your molding [23 Nov 2007|06:08pm] I went and saw the Dali exhibit today. Not a huge fan of his paintings, but I loved the sketches and films. This was my favorite. It's called "Cafe scene". I like that it is polymorphic.

10 Grow into your molding [22 Nov 2007|03:23pm] I need a fake ID. Help.

Grow into your molding [25 Oct 2007|06:49pm] Why do I want Vincent Gallo so bad. Mmmmm baby.

8 Grow into your molding [02 Sep 2007|05:09pm] Aloha.

2 Grow into your molding [10 Aug 2007|09:02am] [ mood | bouncy ] I love the gym. I've become addicted.

1 Grow into your molding my sweet heart [27 Jun 2007|04:32pm]

4 Grow into your molding [26 Jun 2007|09:22am] Seventeen years young.

6 Grow into your molding [19 Jun 2007|04:02pm] [ mood | calm ] mmm, my favorite place in the whole world.

1 Grow into your molding Story of my life. [14 Jun 2007|09:41pm] "That's the problem with drinking, I thought as I poured myself a drink. If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen." Charles Bukowski

4 Grow into your molding [11 May 2007|04:05pm] hmm weird.

6 Grow into your molding [09 May 2007|05:34pm] [ mood | blank ] My self destructive tendencies are becoming prevalant once again.

8 Grow into your molding mmm [02 May 2007|06:50pm]

8 Grow into your molding [04 Apr 2007|05:32pm] I got back from NY today. I was there for five days looking at schools. I think the trip was really worth while because it gave me a much better idea of the schools than any website ever could. I'll be going back in the fall to be doing interviews and i'm so excited. NYC is certainly the place for me and I intend on making it my future home. LIM was my favorite because of the cozy and friendly atmosphere and plus it is a school that has an emphasis on the business of fashion rather than the design side which is exactly what I want. Eeeek i'm so excited to start applying. ( Read more... )

5 Grow into your molding [18 Mar 2007|07:02pm] I went to the Sue Wong fashion show today and it was absolutely amazing. I had second row seats right at the end of the runway. My mom's friend knows the designer so that's how we got the tickets. I really had a great time and it just solidified my desire to be in that industry. The energy is amazing and that is totally the life I want to live. The clothes themselves were not my taste but I had to respect the hand embroidery and beading. They had great attention to detail. Sorry the pictures are kind of blurry, the lights were so bright it was hard to get any detail of the dresses. pictures under the cut. ( Read more... )

3 Grow into your molding [21 Dec 2006|10:52am] Matt and I just got back from NY. I spent over $1000 and now i'm dirt broke. The shopping was unbelievable, and it was extremely cold but it was good for NY weather. I kind of miss the cobble stone streets and brick buildings already. Oh and my camera died half way through the trip so i'm short on picutres.

15 Grow into your molding [17 Oct 2006|02:04pm] This weekend was busy. Homecoming. ( Read more... ) And my one year with Matt :) ( Read more... )

5 Grow into your molding [06 Aug 2006|12:28pm] marc jacobs in LA yesterday. They had a free photobooth.

7 Grow into your molding [27 Jul 2006|10:27am] (me on a bridge in london across from the tate modern art museum.) oh yea, and p.s. I'm home.

10 Grow into your molding sweet 16 [27 Jun 2006|03:22am] Yesterday was my birthday. Shopping in London and dinner at a gourmet vegan restaurant, free champagne, and the bill was on the house. Pretty nice if I do say so myself. The only way it could have been better would be if all my friends could have been here to spend it with me. So happy birthday to me.

7 Grow into your molding [22 Jun 2006|10:29am] So I'm leaving the country for a month. I'll be in Paris, la cote d'Azure, and London. I hope somebody misses me. Because I'll definately be missing somebody. P.S Britty Boo you can expect a phone call on our birthdays!

10 Grow into your molding [03 Jun 2006|04:36pm] Bleh rumors are dumb. Don't people have anything better to do? p.s. If you're looking for something "better to do" I have an art show hanging right now in Follow Your Heart(a vegetarian restaurant and market) on sherman way and topanga. So you should go see it. I have about 20 or so pieces for sale. Oh and here's the first picture of the short haircut I got about a month ago.

14 Grow into your molding mmmm [08 May 2006|04:16pm] yea i pretty much love my boyfriend

4 Grow into your molding [29 Apr 2006|11:01am] It just occured to me how boring and completely uninteresting I have become.

4 Grow into your molding [25 Apr 2006|03:37pm] I'm cutting my hair really short this week. I'm excited. Little boy Claire is making a come back. I'm cutting it like this.

4 Grow into your molding [22 Apr 2006|11:48am] I saw kind of like spitting last night in SB. They were absolutely amazing. I couldn't stop smiling. This man is my hero.

2 Grow into your molding : ) [15 Apr 2006|05:07pm] [ mood | loved ] Six months today. Aqarium of the Pacific Picnic on the beach Cuddle time at home Cooking dinner together <3 <3 <3

13 Grow into your molding [10 Apr 2006|06:53pm] I had an absolutely amazing day yesterday. One of the best in a while as a matter of fact. Matt and I went to see ashes and snow which was nice then we went to this little aquarium under the peir. That was absolute heaven for me, looking at all the octopus and sea cucumbers. Did you know eels are practically blind? But they have four nostrils to make up for it I guess. Then after that we went and walked around the peir for a bit and I finally convinced matt to ride the ferris wheel with me. Afterwards we shared a funnel cake together mmmmm, and went to a bonsai nursery. Matt pretty much was at a loss of words when we walked through the bonsai garden. He wanted them all. Weird this is the longest entry i've written in a long time. Hmm I think i'll stop now. ( Read more... ) and I painted today

10 Grow into your molding Two new paintings [04 Apr 2006|06:22pm] ( Read more... )

8 Grow into your molding Singing into rootbeer bottles. [03 Apr 2006|04:00pm] I miss you, so i'm doing this to make myself happy. ( Read more... )

[30 Mar 2006|05:58pm] its slipping. i'm pissed. I'm just not answering my phone anymore.

8 Grow into your molding new paintings [11 Mar 2006|10:58pm]

8 Grow into your molding [02 Feb 2006|02:46pm] So, I've been painting alot lately. ( Read more... )

5 Grow into your molding Brittybooo [17 Jan 2006|11:18am] I'm pretty happy. She called just to check up on me and this stupid sickness. I love my bestfriend.

2 Grow into your molding [08 Jan 2006|11:00pm] stop trying to break us up and stop lying.

10 Grow into your molding I have fallen and I do not care to get up [06 Jan 2006|10:18am] [ mood | chipper ] ( Read more... )

9 Grow into your molding [25 Dec 2005|04:49pm] [ mood | cheerful ] To say that you are cute would be like saying that a strawberry is sweet. Because a strawberry has secret flavors that are sharp and tarte and red and deep. And I would love to find you growing wild out by the woods. I'd make a basket with the front of my tee shirt and take home as many of you as I could.

18 Grow into your molding New painting [22 Dec 2005|03:07pm] I painted to make myself in a better mood. That idea failed because i'm extremely dissapointed in what i came up with. ( Read more... )

1 Grow into your molding I have a problem: [09 Dec 2005|03:56pm] I will crush you if you don't crush me first.

13 Grow into your molding [05 Dec 2005|04:40pm] Thanks to: this, this, and this, I've been really happy lately. P.S. party with chelsea(ice_metro for the creeps) pictures :-D ( Read more... )

33 Grow into your molding [29 Nov 2005|06:02pm] If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

25 Grow into your molding [27 Nov 2005|01:00pm] [ mood | chipper ] New hair. First time I ever dyed it and I'm very happy with the results. :) ( Read more... )

11 Grow into your molding [26 Nov 2005|10:30am] [ mood | thankful ] I've found something to be thankfun for, my friends. I love my friends and i'm so lucky that I have these wonderful people in my life. + We know how to have a good time. <3 ( Read more... )

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